Unleash The Bats

The End of an Era

Fri, 03 Aug 2007 16:18:14 GMT

So I won't be writing in this journal anymore. Time to start over. So much has changed since I started it a few years ago. I've changed. My whole life has changed. I'm getting married next year and finally chasing my dreams. This chapter is closed.

Any friends who would like to add my new journal drop me a line here or at my email trina_syn@hotmail.com. For privacy purposes I don't want to list my new user name here.

And...it's official

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 04:23:15 GMT

So I am engaged. To my absolute best friend. The person I most adore.

Let the good times roll.

The Vampire Wants What The Werewolf Is Having

Wed, 27 Jun 2007 03:33:45 GMT

I don't think I have updated in a while. Most likely b/c of the writing project I was trying to finish up for deadline. Now it's done and I'm onto a much easier one. Which means hopefully more time for fiction. I'm also working on a 30 day celebrity gossip project. That one is pretty fun. So easy too. Maybe I can write junk for People one day and get paid a shit load.

Finally figured out what I will be doing for Marv's birthday. Well not entirely but mostly. He never comes on here anymore but just in case he does I'm not going to say what. But it was be damn good!

Raven will be done school in 2 days. That's all good except it's only a matter of time until we are driving each other crazy. I really want to book our plans for Jasper but we still need to rent a trailer for the car first. And that means getting a hitch put on too. Blah.

Criss Angel is on and I am obssessed with picking that guy apart. He's the ultimate psychic vampire without being a vampire. He just knows so much about energy manipulation. It's greatly intriguing.

I have limited focus right now. My lover is waiting for me and I have a kid to chase to bed.
My mom had the silliest fake argument with me about me and Marv naming our future kid. I said I get final say haha and my mom did the whole, why doesn't Marv get a say thing. Bah. Everything I have named has the coolest name. Even my cats. I name characters all the time. And they are ultra cool names. And any kid I have is going to have a name that is mostly just their own and not shared with thousands or millions of people. Screw that shit.

Weird Shit

Thu, 14 Jun 2007 20:26:43 GMT

Some guy on this weird dating show is obsessed with smelling holes on people. Like bellybuttons and in the mouth and shit. It's so fucking weird. How the hell do these people get on tv?

This has been a pretty laid back week in terms of writing. Finished my last project Monday and just discussing future ones so at the moment no deadlines! Woohoo. So I've been chilling, back searching some job boards and hopefully devoting more time over the weekend to my fiction.
It's been a somewhat stressful week in terms of working out the home buying stuff but it seems to be coming together now. Thank God. And we actually found a place we really love, it's been renovated to the max. Literally looks like it should be in a home decor magazine. So we're hoping it's still available when Mike's wife gives us the go ahead to make an offer.
Of course it is really discouraging on one hand b/c I know that Marv's family thinks bad stuff about me, they have already presumed I am untrustworthy even though they have never met me. We're pretty sure they think he's taking the money b/c I told him to but reality is that we have serious fucking debt to pay or else we don't get a mortgage. He's decided that the money was left for him to secure his future and that's what he's using it for and what anyone else thinks doesn't matter.
Easy for him to say. It just really cuts deep for me that my family has made him one of their own and accept that he's the one I'm going to marry while his family expects me to be Krissy.

But I'm not. I am me and I adore Marv. And I don't control him, which is weird that people seem to think that. We are best friends on every level and I am noticing that most couples don't even compare. Always arguing or being jealous or untrusting. None of that here.
We've basically decided that we're running away to elope when we get married so no one can ruin our wedding day haha. Just us and God. Perfect.

Better Days

Sat, 09 Jun 2007 05:23:50 GMT

This has been kind of a trying week. It was really nice to have Marv back in bed with me at night but we had a couple of real miscommunications. Tough trying to get back into the regular day to day. It makes it harder living here. I'm hoping that will change soon. It's nice tonight though b/c Raven is sleeping over at her best friends and me and Marv are just chillin watching shows we haven't seen in awhile. It's nice.

Things are going pretty good with the freelance writing for work. Since I quit my job at Service Master and started full time writing I've had steady jobs and they are increasing in pay. Always a plus. I have three potentially regular clients and I'm feeling really glad about it all. It's a bit of a "so there" feeling to those people who don't think I work hard or didn't think it was realistic to say eff you to a 9-5 job and do what I really want.

Now if I can get my fiction seeing some success that would rule. I have two books about 75% done. I just need to get my first one done and edited so I can self publish a few copies and start submitting like crazy to publishers and agents. I think I look at this thing more than anything else now. Bah! I do love it though.

Libraries, Not as quiet as I remember them to be

Wed, 06 Jun 2007 19:26:35 GMT

Ok, so what the hell? I get pretty distracted if I'm trying to focus on my fiction at home. TV and internet make so unable to focus and then when everyone gets home that just makes it even more impossible. So I had the brilliant idea of coming to the library. Their wi-fi hotspot connection is down so there was no easy internet access today...or so I thought. As soon as I turned my laptop on it found an unsecure connection (most likely from a house nearby) and jumped on.
A lot of people with wireless routers don't realize the default setting is unsecure, meaning people like me can piggy back on their connection. If they set it to secure then it asks for a password before connecting.
I rely on those people who just don't know lol. My neighbor being one of them has saved me from my mom's dial up hell.

So here I am, supposed to be working on my werewolf novel and instead watching 2 girls out the window carry a really huge cardboard tree. Hmmm. Me thinks I should be doing something productive but I just finished that big data backup project and am just not feeling like it. Of course I have another project to start today about restaurants. That one is much shorter though and much easier.

We had a tornado touch down outside town yesterday. That was nuts. The town flooded minutes after I left. Two of my friends had water filled basements. Everything was all good though. Just turned into a bad storm after that.

I need to try and force myself to get some work done.

Yay!

Mon, 04 Jun 2007 03:21:32 GMT

I am so psyched that Marv is done working nights now. Woohoo! He just found out the other night. So the weekend was way cooler since he could actually come out and participate in our silly small town carnival. It was cool. We went on some rides with Raven, saw the parade and won some prizes. It was so hot and I'm still getting over the flu so that sucks ass but otherwise it was cool.

So A was out on Friday to do our yearly bar ritual. It sucked. I should have known it would b/c it has for the last while. Oh well. Either way she ticked me off when she said Marv was my sugar daddy jus cuz he makes more money then me.
The truth is, she is fucking jealous b/c her lame ass loser bf spends his money on transformer toys and tattoos and whoever else he is fucking at the moment. Also the fact that I walked out on a go nowhere job to chase a dream (which is paying off already) and my man loves me and supports me.
It's not my problem that she is too lame to walk away from loser boy. She knows it's pathetic, she's practically his slave.
Me and Marv really are best friends and I guess that is something to be jealous of.
Sad though b/c destiny is in your own hands. Make a choice and have the balls to change it or suffer in fucking silence.

So there's a mini rant.

I have a serious deadline in two days for the articles I'm currently doing. Gotta head to bed soon to catch the new Trailer Park Boys and write another article.

Never trust a man with no shirt!

Wed, 30 May 2007 05:17:07 GMT

Ah haha. The Trailer Park Boys are fucking hilarious. For someone who is such an opinionated critic I am still surprised that they won me over. It's good times.

I cannot wait! until Marv is done this night job shit. Two weeks or less now. It will be so much better when he's on a regular schedule. This weekend is Farmer's Days in our town haha which is just as lame as it sounds. There's a parade and fair grounds and the bars are freakin hoppin. In fact, it's the only weekend worth going to the bars here all year.

Anda's coming, it's our yearly thing and Marv will be working and sleeping anyway. The interesting thing about living in a small town is that everyone leaves and comes back. And everyone knows almost everyone else.
So this time of year is prime for running into people from high school that you haven't seen in almost ten years.
It's fun cuz it can be catty girls you always wanted to show up or that ex bf whose nose you want to rub in his total loss. Haha! Sounds egotistical but come on, we all take that moment of satisfaction and "look at me now" if we can. It's rare but well deserved.

I'm starting to really look forward to the summer. It would be nice though if people didn't jerk me around about my car that's for sale and just tell me if they want it or not so I can move to other potential buyers. Sheesh. This woman from my old work was so madly interested in looking at my Sunbird. Her husband came by to look at it and made some comments about how good the engine was. But then at work today my mom said she kind of avoided her. Or so my mom thought. As if she didn't want to tell her she didn't want it.
Weird.
Why would it be such a big deal to say yes or no?

www.TrinaSyn.com

Sun, 27 May 2007 03:55:54 GMT

I'm not sure if I even mentioned this in here yet but I bought a dot com a couple weeks ago. TrinaSyn.com is now online! It's a mix of freelance and fiction and I'm proud of me for getting a real dot com and not pissing around with those stupid free sites. I made some stickers for it with adhesive sticker printer paper. Kinda fun but not the good vinyl waterproof ones. Marv put one on his hard hat at work and said the guys will probably think it's a porn site. Ha! As if.

My moms cat is going insane. He's this real old effer that she's had since I was in my early teens. Since we started staying here he's gotten really nuts, like peeing on mine and Marv's stuff if we leave it outside our room (he has no access to our room). Then just today Raven said her room smelled like pee and I go in to check, the little hairy fucker pissed all over Gabrielle's bed (thank God not Raven's) so much that it's just total garbage.
Mom thinks it's cuz we have cats here but they are in our room and never in her cats space. Messed up. I blame his old age. Or just his attitude maybe.

It was really nice out today. I had to clean out my old car b/c Flo from work is coming to look at it tomorrow. I hope she buys it. I need the moolah. That reminds me, I think I left the windows open.

Pikker-Upp

Thu, 24 May 2007 04:58:39 GMT

I probably watch too much Trailer Park Boys, but damn it's just so frickin funny. Not for everyone that's for sure. I discovered today that one of my neighbors must have wireless internet b/c my laptop tapped into the signal when I was upstairs and I actually had some high speed going on. Downstairs in my room though it's just dial up. I can't wait til we're living back in town. I mean, any internet is better than no internet but yeah, I plan to be tapping into everyone else's highspeed as much as possible.

I just started a new writing job today. I think it will go ok. Writing small keyword articles about tape backup for data. This project will be for $150 which is decent. I have a 14 day deadline so I gotta get on it. No procrastinating. I'm bad for that. Plus, sooner it's done the sooner I get paid.

Hopefully my damn cats aren't waking me up at all hours of the night. Last night really sucked ass. They are just SO BAD sometimes. 4am is not a nice time to be waking up to find the little jerks trying to climb into the false ceiling. Grrr!

Still missing Marv terribly. It's really tough only seeing each other for a couple hours a day. I cannot wait until it's over. A few more weeks, 19 days I think, then he's back to normal schedule. Counting down.

Brunette

Sun, 20 May 2007 05:12:36 GMT

So I have brown hair now. Really dark brown. People keep mistaking it for black but the box said dark brown and when you get closer it does look brown. I also got it cut today which blows b/c now I have quite a few less inches than I did. I was pretty sad cuz my hair was to my ass. It's still really long of course but still...it's saddening. It was my own fault though. I know that.
I'm starting to think it's time to grow it out. But I don't know if I have the patience.

I'm missing Marv so bad. I hate when he works nights. He's so burnt out and tired and we are lucky if we see each other 2 hours a day. I can't wait until this job is done and he's back to normal day hours. I am sooo lonely.
I know he is too though. The other day when I went in there to get some clothes he reached out in his sleep, grabbed my arm and tried pulling me into bed saying, "So lonely."
Hahaha aww. My love.
I can't wait til we get married.

So I have another writing job, starting next week sometime. It's not always the funnest of topics but as long as its doable it's money and more experience for the resume.

I'm so ????

Sat, 19 May 2007 03:42:04 GMT

Sometimes I just can't believe my luck. As in...where in the world did I ever do something to deserve the man in my life? I don't even know. But I do know how blessed I am. My best friend is also my lover and team mate. I couldn't ask for more.

Ah...how I miss him

Tue, 15 May 2007 04:10:19 GMT

This whole Marv working at night thing is getting pretty tough. For both of us. Things are tight and we're just getting our lives on track. Practically engaged, struggling to figure out which way to get the right place to live. It could be worse, we really do have it quite good. Just a few little problems to work out. We had a pretty rough evening, some crying and a lot of hugging. Ok a lot of crying by me lol.

Watching Trailer Park Boys and wishing so bad that he was here. It's not the same without him. This night job shit is really sucking. I know he hates it too. Can't wait until it's over. I'm so tired now. That crying tired. Not good.

Crazeee

Sat, 12 May 2007 20:35:03 GMT

Holy shits. I just found out that my best friend is pregnant. It's pretty neat b/c her due date is Dec 25th. I hope it all goes well for her. She helped me so much when I had Raven. It will be nice to be on the other side.

Recently found a new ebsite, one listed in Writer's Digest. It's set up much different from other sites. Instead of the writer's battling for low paying jobs we get to post our articles, pick the selling price and the clients come to us to buy the piece for their site. I just signed up so I haven't really gotten started yet but it looks promising.
Fingers crossed.

Going out with Anda tonight. Haven't really done that in a long ass time. Months. It should be ok. Not quite sure what to wear though.

I couldn't handle working in that dark, dreary room all day so I dragged my computer upstairs. I figured, why the hell not? Only takes 5 minutes and it makes a huge difference in my ability to write.

Now I'm hungry though and for some reason disgustingly craving mcdonald's. Blech.

3 more weeks of Marv working nights. He doesn't want to and I don't want him to. But we're plodding through.

Zombies aren't my thing

Wed, 09 May 2007 04:50:46 GMT

Really, they're not. I'm much more of a vampire and werewolf girl myself. But lately I am really feeling like a zombie alright. I am having one of those in a slump, kinda depressed nights. I just feel like for all of the hours I've been putting into my writing job search there isn't much turning up. The real money is in magazines, which is great, I have a book that lists hundreds of good ones to submit to.
The problem is that for each of them you have to query the mag with an article idea, then wait for who knows how long for them to get back to you.

I have a list of nonfiction and fictions mags to send to. I start tomorrow.

I'm really missing Marv with him working nights. Tonight will be the 10th night without him. You'd think it gets easier but it's actually getting harder. I had a little cry to him earlier. I'm just stressing out and we have to get on this mortgage shit. Time to really talk to the bank and stop putting it off, b/c the market's continuing to rise and if we don't act soon, we could get shut out. And renters are living total hell right now so I sure can't rejoin their ranks.

I know it's all going to work out. When you want something bad enough, the entire universe conspires to help make it happen. Paulo Coelho said that in The Alchemist. That book had many great life lessons. I sure ain't throwing in the towel, no matter what.

1 Year

Wed, 02 May 2007 23:10:13 GMT

Today Marv and I have been together for one year. Woohoo! That was so easy, I can't believe how fast the time flew. It's crazy that a day like this comes along and makes me almost wish I could say thank you to someone for never being there for him so that I could be. And for taking complete advantage of him so that I could be the one to show him what love really is and to really live the meaning of the word "partner", taking turns dragging the other one along when life gets hard.
I can honestly say before Marv, I was really missing out. I have never felt so loved and respected in my life. Thank you for that "K", b/c your blind loss was the most amazing gain for me.
We are two halves of the same whole. And this is just the first year of always.

Oh My...

Tue, 01 May 2007 06:25:07 GMT

Ok that's it. I think I fucking hate antiques. I am so tired of looking up the info. It was easy for some and for others it's like non effing existent!

GRRR!!!

I miss my Marvelous.

Are You Ready?

Sat, 28 Apr 2007 18:40:54 GMT

Alright so I got my first paid writing job. It's for an antiques glossary. It's not too hard. Not the highest paying but it'll be $70 for my first writing job so I guess that's not bad considering some of the shabby prices I've seen people paying. The real money is in magazines and e-zines so I have to start typing up some queries and getting them out.

Dell is really pissing me off. When we ordered this computer it was sooo easy. A few clicks, done, it's on it's way. I go back over a week ago and try to order a laptop. I need it if I'm going to be writing full time. I can't sit at this one for 8-10 hours straight. It's already making me crazy. I want a laptop so I can go to the park and coffee shops and what not.

Anyway Dell fucked the order up and now says it doesn't exist. So we're going to try one more time before totally reaming them out.

Supposed to be going out tonight to say goodbye to Mark b/c he's leaving for Australia. Still haven't heard from him though. Also Marv and I are going for dinner first. It's our 1 year on the 2nd and he'll be working nights then for a month straight. This our last night together so we want to do something nice.

Aching Fingers and Zombie Eyes

Sun, 22 Apr 2007 02:55:52 GMT

The last 3 days or so have been insane. I have been staring at this damn thing almost the entire time! I've been madly on the hunt for writing jobs and I finally got my first one and applied to many others as well as posted my information everywhere.
I also built a website, printed flyers and business cards and began the researxh for my writing job.

A store in Texas that sells antiques is putting a glossary on their website so I have a list of antique items I have to write about. I have already done a few and its not so hard, the only work is in getting the facts. It's a paying job though which makes me much more credible to publishers and will open the door to getting more work.
Woohoo.
Makes me feel so good about taking control of my life and leaving the job that I hated.

Marv just started an overtime job and started cleaning up some of his credit issues. So I think we may be in a position to finally work out mortgage stuff with the bank. We're going to see this week. And if it doesn't work out with them we just need to get hooked up with a lender. That's how my mom got her house.
I just know we've got to get a move on.
I won't take no for an answer. We're getting a house and that's that.

Being Sick Blows

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 22:28:01 GMT

So Marv was sick like all weekend with a killer fever and head cold. I didn't think I would catch it but I woke up this morning and was totally throwing up. I have a weak stomach with flu bugs but I also didn't sleep well last night and sometimes if I get a shitty sleep and wake up early I will throw up. Not often though. Ugh. I have felt like shit all day.

This has been a really crappy day. I don't feel like I got anything of any worth done, although I did throw myself in the bath for a good long soak. I needed that.

Good Friday

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 00:25:28 GMT

So we went to the church service this morning. Met Sarah there. It was ok but I can definitely say that they have had much better services in the past. Last year was really good. I am making a Passover dinner tomorrow night. A tradition Sarah and I started the year of The Passion. I dig it. It's basically a recreation of what Jesus ate at the last supper. I hope the wine I got is good. I haven't tried this kind yet.

Me and Marv are watching this crazy ass show on Sex TV on satellite. Sex Confessions or something like that. Weird. This gay guy just said that his first time ever was with a chick and that he thinks about his orgasm with her every time he does a guy.
I'm just like, WHAT? That doesn't make any sense at all to me.
This channel rules though. We watch it like all the time since we got it lol. But it's not just sex, only at night. During the day they have the most interesting shows, like about escorts and transexuals, just getting to know the real people who are living such different lives that you don't really know about beyond the surface.

I'm still trying to figure out what I'm going to wear to Tiffany's wedding next weekend. I don't want to wear all black since my hair is all black right now. Hmm, I saw this cute little white dress in the mall that I really liked but I can't afford it by next week. Oh well. Guys seem to have it easier with that stuff.

So on a different note, it was mine and Marv's 11 months on the 2nd. Which means it's almost a year so we're planning to have a really good night. Hopefully going to get the Roman room at Fantasyland Hotel. We stayed there before in the Polynesian room and it was so awesome.

Where Is Your Passion?

Thu, 05 Apr 2007 15:46:18 GMT

Easter Weekend is here again. It is my most favourite holy time. Christmas is special but this is the other end of the spectrum and I love it b/c it means so much and I am a fan of anything that can cut to the core like the death and ressurrection of Jesus. Since The Passion came out and Sarah and I started our passover dinners, the meaning has really changed for me. It just gets better.
Most likely hitting up church service with Sarah tomorrow morning. It will be good. Last year was awesome. Me and Marv are going to watch The Passion tomorrow night. He hasn't seen it yet...

I'm going into the city today to hit up the Christian store Blessings for some Easter stuff for Raven and Gabs. Maybe a few others too. I love that store. I go in and want to come out with everything.
I also need to try really hard to remember to find the Dell kiosk so I can order some damn printer ink. That is the only shitty thing about this computer is that you can't just walk into Staples and buy the ink. It has to be ordered from Dell exclusively.
Bah humbug.

Living here isn't so bad now. The first few days were really hard. But now we've come to a point where we are starting to see the path we're on more clearly. We can see the steps to getting a house, just a few things we need to take care of and work out before we can start taking them. But either way, I'm faithful. Nothing is going to shake me this week.

Wooo

Fri, 30 Mar 2007 20:40:43 GMT

Friday again. Payday Friday at least haha. Good thing. I needed a bunch of stuff for the cats and whatnot. They are actually handling being here waaaaay better than I am. Which is shocking.
I hate my stupid job so I'm going to look into some freelance writing on the side. There's actually a few sites that hook you up with companies who pay you to write up their memo's and newsletters and junk. Whatever, I'd rather write the dictionary than walk into another shitty basement. Fuck.

Fires are fun and pretty interesting. Floods are not so fun unless they happen to be somewhere interesting. And sewer backups, let's just say you don't ever want to hear those words outta the bosses mouth. Yikes! Though it really isn't as bad as you'd picture, it's not the way I want to spend my days.

A New Day

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 15:43:47 GMT

Ok. I've had it. No more of this depression shit. Since we got to my mom's me and Raven have both been extremely depressed on and off. Especially at bed time. She cries every night saying she doesn't want to live here and I even had a real good break down myself to Marv the other night. He's been great, the most accepting one of all of us. But this morning even he really wasn't feeling up to facing the day.

So that means it's up to me as the resident control freak to take charge and bombard our way through the obstacles that stand between us and our house, wherever it may currently be. I know it's not going to be an over night process, but at least once the ball is rolling I can rest easy knowing it's going to happen and have a better idea of when.
Otherwise we will end up renting again b/c there is no way in hell I can stay here longer than the agreed month or two. I refuse.

It's Not So Bad

Wed, 28 Mar 2007 00:49:25 GMT

It's still kinda hard sleeping at night. Our whole routine has changed with my brother across the hall. He's not too bad but he sleeps with his tv on and we can hear it through the wall. It woke me up at 2am when the bass was booming in the commercials. Sucks. And though he's not total evil, he isn't so good at honoring polite requests either.

At the moment he's out with his gf so I can actually use the internet. There is no high speed here so it's just dial up and if his gf isn't here he's online all damn night as well as pounding his music at the same time. Marv says it feels like the time he lived above the Gas Pump only better cuz it's with me hahaha! But really, I can't handle it even if he can.

I just want our own house so bad. We're getting on that right away, as soon as we are done cleaning up the old place. I was there today and we only have a couple more little things to do then it is good bye for good to that place.