So I won't be writing in this journal anymore. Time to start over. So much has changed since I started it a few years ago. I've changed. My whole life has changed. I'm getting married next year and finally chasing my dreams. This chapter is closed. 

Any friends who would like to add my new journal drop me a line here or at my email trina_syn@hotmail.com. For privacy purposes I don't want to list my new user name here.

I don't think I have updated in a while. Most likely b/c of the writing project I was trying to finish up for deadline. Now it's done and I'm onto a much easier one. Which means hopefully more time for fiction. I'm also working on a 30 day celebrity gossip project. That one is pretty fun. So easy too. Maybe I can write junk for People one day and get paid a shit load.

Finally figured out what I will be doing for Marv's birthday. Well not entirely but mostly. He never comes on here anymore but just in case he does I'm not going to say what. But it was be damn good!

Raven will be done school in 2 days. That's all good except it's only a matter of time until we are driving each other crazy. I really want to book our plans for Jasper but we still need to rent a trailer for the car first. And that means getting a hitch put on too. Blah.

Criss Angel is on and I am obssessed with picking that guy apart. He's the ultimate psychic vampire without being a vampire. He just knows so much about energy manipulation. It's greatly intriguing. 

I have limited focus right now. My lover is waiting for me and I have a kid to chase to bed. 
My mom had the silliest fake argument with me about me and Marv naming our future kid. I said I get final say haha and my mom did the whole, why doesn't Marv get a say thing. Bah. Everything I have named has the coolest name. Even my cats. I name characters all the time. And they are ultra cool names. And any kid I have is going to have a name that is mostly just their own and not shared with thousands or millions of people. Screw that shit. 

Some guy on this weird dating show is obsessed with smelling holes on people. Like bellybuttons and in the mouth and shit. It's so fucking weird. How the hell do these people get on tv?

This has been a pretty laid back week in terms of writing. Finished my last project Monday and just discussing future ones so at the moment no deadlines! Woohoo. So I've been chilling, back searching some job boards and hopefully devoting more time over the weekend to my fiction. 
It's been a somewhat stressful week in terms of working out the home buying stuff but it seems to be coming together now. Thank God. And we actually found a place we really love, it's been renovated to the max. Literally looks like it should be in a home decor magazine. So we're hoping it's still available when Mike's wife gives us the go ahead to make an offer.
Of course it is really discouraging on one hand b/c I know that Marv's family thinks bad stuff about me, they have already presumed I am untrustworthy even though they have never met me. We're pretty sure they think he's taking the money b/c I told him to but reality is that we have serious fucking debt to pay or else we don't get a mortgage. He's decided that the money was left for him to secure his future and that's what he's using it for and what anyone else thinks doesn't matter.
Easy for him to say. It just really cuts deep for me that my family has made him one of their own and accept that he's the one I'm going to marry while his family expects me to be Krissy.

But I'm not. I am me and I adore Marv. And I don't control him, which is weird that people seem to think that. We are best friends on every level and I am noticing that most couples don't even compare. Always arguing or being jealous or untrusting. None of that here. 
We've basically decided that we're running away to elope when we get married so no one can ruin our wedding day haha. Just us and God. Perfect.

Ah haha. The Trailer Park Boys are fucking hilarious. For someone who is such an opinionated critic I am still surprised that they won me over. It's good times. 

I cannot wait! until Marv is done this night job shit. Two weeks or less now. It will be so much better when he's on a regular schedule. This weekend is Farmer's Days in our town haha which is just as lame as it sounds. There's a parade and fair grounds and the bars are freakin hoppin. In fact, it's the only weekend worth going to the bars here all year. 

Anda's coming, it's our yearly thing and Marv will be working and sleeping anyway. The interesting thing about living in a small town is that everyone leaves and comes back. And everyone knows almost everyone else. 
So this time of year is prime for running into people from high school that you haven't seen in almost ten years. 
It's fun cuz it can be catty girls you always wanted to show up or that ex bf whose nose you want to rub in his total loss. Haha! Sounds egotistical but come on, we all take that moment of satisfaction and "look at me now" if we can. It's rare but well deserved. 

I'm starting to really look forward to the summer. It would be nice though if people didn't jerk me around about my car that's for sale and just tell me if they want it or not so I can move to other potential buyers. Sheesh. This woman from my old work was so madly interested in looking at my Sunbird. Her husband came by to look at it and made some comments about how good the engine was. But then at work today my mom said she kind of avoided her. Or so my mom thought. As if she didn't want to tell her she didn't want it. 
Weird. 
Why would it be such a big deal to say yes or no?

Today Marv and I have been together for one year. Woohoo! That was so easy, I can't believe how fast the time flew. It's crazy that a day like this comes along and makes me almost wish I could say thank you to someone for never being there for him so that I could be. And for taking complete advantage of him so that I could be the one to show him what love really is and to really live the meaning of the word "partner", taking turns dragging the other one along when life gets hard. 
I can honestly say before Marv, I was really missing out. I have never felt so loved and respected in my life. Thank you for that "K", b/c your blind loss was the most amazing gain for me. 
We are two halves of the same whole. And this is just the first year of always.

The last 3 days or so have been insane. I have been staring at this damn thing almost the entire time! I've been madly on the hunt for writing jobs and I finally got my first one and applied to many others as well as posted my information everywhere.
I also built a website, printed flyers and business cards and began the researxh for my writing job.

A store in Texas that sells antiques is putting a glossary on their website so I have a list of antique items I have to write about. I have already done a few and its not so hard, the only work is in getting the facts. It's a paying job though which makes me much more credible to publishers and will open the door to getting more work. 
Woohoo. 
Makes me feel so good about taking control of my life and leaving the job that I hated.

Marv just started an overtime job and started cleaning up some of his credit issues. So I think we may be in a position to finally work out mortgage stuff with the bank. We're going to see this week. And if it doesn't work out with them we just need to get hooked up with a lender. That's how my mom got her house.
I just know we've got to get a move on.
I won't take no for an answer. We're getting a house and that's that.